The perfect job?
I’m burnt out! My biological clock has gone haywire. Much like having a sudden jetlag without traveling to another part of the world. The week has been my busiest and damn I’m not getting paid enough for this. Two overnights in one week with a zombie-like consciousness after lack of sleep. Aarghh! Not that I don’t mind working this hard but if you’re supposed to be somewhere else with other things to do, it becomes so much of a hassle! Geez. I don’t intend to torture myself like that.
I’m beginning to think I made some wrong decisions. Just recently I got offered a job by a Japanese IT company that offers 60% more of what I’m getting right now. But the prospect of going back to the web industry and staying in the office for a 9-6 basis just give me shivers again and felt clasutrophobic inside the 4 corners of an office room. Though I had a chance to go to Japan for a training, I turned it down last minute. Stupid me? Even if it’s just 15 min from my home.
Beore that I got another job offer as a consultant offering 40% more of what I’m currenlty getting. What I like is it’s close to home again and I get a flexi time with it. But gong back to web, not that it’s bad, but I felt that I might succumb to eternal boredom.
And way before that I got another unexpected job offer from Riyadh on an IT company for a Senior position was sent in an email. It offers 100% more of what I’m getting here, and I don’t have to spend anything on getting there. I declined the first time. Of all the countries Saudi Arabia seems last on my mind. But looking into it more there was opportunity to explore another culture so apart from us. But no dating? Or traveling? Or music? Or Cinema? left me feeling constrained. I did decide to try it later on but I guess I’m just to damn slow to respond and maybe they took another.
There are lot of opportunities I’ve passed up this year. Maybe I’m just not the “Being an employee” kind. I don’t want any boss staring at my back nor stay confined in an office area. If you have read any of Robert Kiyozaki’s works, you’ll know that “Being an employee is the riskiest thing to do”. It made me think a lot right now, of the direction where I’m going. I can never find a perfect job because I can never be an employee.
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Saturday, July 16th, 2005 at 10:04 pm 
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July 17th, 2005 at 8:23 pm
Hey! lucky you for having a lot of job offers! hehe.. Ever considered teaching? U sure have a lot of great talent in you.. Goodluck! =)
August 25th, 2007 at 10:42 am
my sentiments exactly. i’ve also passed up a lot of opportunities because being employed is the last thing that i want to be. not that there’s anything wrong with working for someone else. i think it’s more of my fear of being holed up in an office with a fixed sked and a routine (and being required to wear skirts and heels and makeup!). i’m extremely claustrophobic and the feeling of being constrained and limited would kill me. it might be a posh and glamorous job but it will kill me. although sometimes i wonder if i’ve made the right decisions. i’m not so young but not so old either and i think it’s not yet too late for me to enter the corporate world or work abroad if i choose to. the thing is, i have other options and i choose to stay here and ride it out . maybe what i’m really trying to say is, in retrospect (since this blog entry is 2 years old), how would you rate the decisions you’ve made in the past? do you have any regrets? if you can go back in time, would you have done things differently? hay, i’m sorry i’m just so confused. everyone around me keeps telling me, go for it, sayang yan, but i just can’t see if it is worth giving up the freedom and sense of pride that i have right now. what do you think? =)