So Frustrated

God! I just got home from a lakbay urban gimmick, we ate Dinner at Don Hen (Don Henlin to Mutts),then went to Sonata in Malate where there w...

God! I just got home from a lakbay urban gimmick, we ate Dinner at Don Hen (Don Henlin to Mutts),then went to Sonata in Malate where there was this nice acoustic performer.

You may ask why am I so frustrated, well for some weeks now I have returned on playing with my guitar. Diligently at night I try to remember those chords I use and even started singing with it. Somehow Music has been an unfinished business for me or something that I have dreamed about so big. Happily I was able to play a few songs which I think sounds great though I have to get used to my voice while singing. I got a recorder and listened to my play and it’s kinda acceptable.

Well a while ago I get to listen to a pro perform and I was so frustrated and inspired at the same time. But later on the frustration became stronger because I have so much to learn and he’s so good my self-esteem just went to an all time low.

It got me thinking, am I really up for this? Does my passion for music end just by listening and the dream to perform will only be a distant fantasy that will only stay a dream? Right now I’m really doubting my ability and it seems I would just stay as a frustrated artist as is and let my guitar rot in my room.

Sigh :{